I Still Don't Know How To "Dougie"

I was listening to the radio, just, like yesterday. A song came one "Teach Me How To Dougie" and of course, my brother liked it. So we went online and looked for the music video. It was the stupidest thing ever. To make matters worse, I still don't know how to "Dougie"

What is up with singers these days?? Taylor Swift, yeah, her songs are good, but Carrie Underwood, Danielle Peck, there's a lot of artist who are way better than her, but they get no recognition. It makes me mad. Real mad.

Also, today's music. Like on popular radio stations, the songs are just unbelievable! What the hell is "Dougie" and even after watching the video, I still don't know. I see guys having weird seizures, but I think that's what they call "dancing".... Wow, I'm....shocked. I'm enraged.

What's the meaning--the purpose of the song? The lyrics make no sense, whatsoever. They have countless obscene words, degrading, actually. Are these guys for real? Were they like..... high or something?

What do you guys think of the song? Am I being unreasonable, crazy? Do you like the song?

Bad For Me

Don't you hate it, all the things we love are bad for us. I mean, it's either illegal, immoral, or bad.

C'mon! I know I'm pretty lame, I enjoy museums, libraries, and reading in my spare time. BUT, sometimes, rarely, I like to go out and have fun.But, when I do, it gets fun, I think. I turn up the music and I dance around to hip-hop, not only country. I laugh, and I'm just fun! Haha!

Anyways, still, why is EVERYTHING that feels so DANG good, bad for me?? I like chocolate, but my hips sure don't. I like shopping, but my purse sure don't. Oh, and the occasional crush on the "bad boy" or someone who doesn't EVEN glance at you! Haha, good times...good times. I like fast cars, but, you know what, the law sure don't. Haha, I'm in the mood for good, hearty, teenage fun.

BUT, I'm stuck at home, blogging, and listening to country, in the middle of a new book, it's actually pretty good! I got sucked in, until my eyes started burning... You know, I think the only reason I read is because I have no life. Seriously, I like being in someone else's shoes. The affairs, the lies, the cheating, the meeting new people, the falling in love. Seriously, from reading I've had lung cancer, I've fallen in love, and I've been to heaven. Pretty cool, actually.

Anyways, yeah. Don't you hate things that are bad for you, but you love them? I just don't get it! Why do you think that everything that feels so dang good bad for us?

Would Revenge Ever Be Justified?

Hey, y'all! So, I've been thinking, I KNOW BIG SHOCKER! Anywho, is revenge EVER justified. I'm not really sure how I feel about revenge. Sometimes I do feel like getting revenger but it's wrong. Would it ever be justified? Would it ever be right?

Now, heres how I see it. If it's something small, like stealing your boyfriend, or a pencil, then it's not worth getting revenge. What are you going to do? Steal their pencil? Oh, how scary. Yeah, I'm shaking. Also, a big point here would be karma. What goes around comes around. Oh, trust me on this. It really does.

Yet, if it's something big, like embarrassing you in front of the whole school...well, you could get him or her back, but there would also be no point. Except a small moment of joy, and then you'd probably get expelled. So, not worth it. There's also karma. If things are bad, I promise you, they're gonna get good! I promise you!

Well, I think that's all. And, that is the question. Is revenge ever justified? Is it worth it? Comment! I'm always up for a good debate!

Am I Realistic Or Simply Bitter?

I've been thinking....and for a while now. And, like, for reals! Anyways, I've been thinking.

I really don't believe in "true love" or "a life full of happiness". Oh, and positive people. Some positive people just drive me nuts! The most positive I get is "I'm positive I hate you." Haha, but I do try to be positive, most of the time. :D

Anyways, I don't think "true love" exists. There's lust, and there a lot of other components that make a person feel that they are "in love" and that its "forever true love" and whatnot. It's not. Seriously, grow up. That is my opinion, I know people IN LOVE, but after a few years it's over. Love never lasts. Girls are so gullible now adays. I feel like slapping them. ALL OF 'em!

Now, you got to find other ways to make it alone, or just don't care. I think it's better if you keep a safe distance from everyone, I think I'm pretty contempt with loneliness. I mean, once you think you really like someone and you think it's going to be different, and then you trust, and then it's over. So much for love. Haha.

Don't get me wrong, I believe in love. I just believe in love towards other people. Like caring for others, helping kids in Africa, sending money over there. Going out there and helping. Giving a woman in the street your spare change. Little ways to show that you care. That is what I believe in.

I don't believe in a life "full of happiness". I mean, that is just....not possible. Seriously, it's like saying

"When I sing, my voice sounds like an opera singer and Jesus, and then I take the form of a unicorn."

No, just no. We all have our share of troubles, and things to worry about. I, like, don't really belive all that in happiness. I know a lot of people who base their happiness on what another person is feeling, and I think it's not healthy. It's the other person, take charge of your OWN emotions and your OWN feelings. Stop saying things like

"Oh, if she's happy, then I'm happy."

What the heck? Why base YOUR emotion on SOMEONE ELSE'S emotions? They can feel whatever they want to feel. Live and let live. Poor people, I seriously think that is a form of manipulation.

The only form of happiness that I actually believe is in small moments of TRUE happiness, and once you experience them, you have to keep them, and hold on tight to them. Those small moments that you hold on to, those will help you go through this hell, that we call life. And, that is what I believe in.

So, do you agree, or not? Why? I mean, I do point some pretty interesting points. Comment!! Make sure to leave your name!! I do love a good debate!

I'm 95% Retarded!!

1. [x] You have choked on water before.

2. [x] You have tripped down the stairs before.

3. [x] You have walked into a door.

4. [x] You have pushed a door the wrong way.

5. [x] You have walked into a wall.

6. [x] You have fallen going UP the stairs.

7. [x] You have jumped off something.

8. [x] You have been electrocuted.

9. [x] You have put metal/aluminum in the microwave.

10. [x] Right after a commercial comes on you forgot the show you were watching.

11. [x] You have forgotten something that someone said.

12. [x] You sometimes dont understand stuff / jokes, or it takes a long time to figure them out.

14. [x] You have been bleeding and not even noticed it.

15. [x] You've worn something backwards / inside out the whole day without knowing.

16. [x] You have stuck a fork / knife in a toaster before.

17. [x] You have played with fire.

18. [ ] You've stepped on a flat iron / curling iron / straightener.

19. [x] You didnt even notice there wasn't a number 13 in this quiz

20. [x] You just checked to see if there wasnt a number 13

I think I'm 95% Retarded. I'm worried.

She Knows....I Just Can't

She knows how to do it,

I don't know how, I'll admit

I know I can't, and I understand

Good choice, is all I'll say, it's just where I stand.

She would've have given you all of her heart,

I just can't, theres someone who just tore it apart,

He took all that I had, I tried to do it again, even though we both know

I just can't.

She's charming and she's cute, all in her own little way

I know I'll never be like her, the same, I'll just stay

She's just beautiful, and she's great

I wished, and I tried to be like her, but we both know

I just can't

It was your fault, but more mine,

Let's face it,

You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart,

Then you realized you wanted something more.

We both knew it wasn't gonna work out,

I wasn't the best,

I wasn't her.

You said you loved me,

And, I loved you, too

Though, we were never in love,

I still love you, and I hope we remain friends

I think you're one hell of a dude, and I look up to you.

It's all right, I know I wasn't the best I could be

And you did your best to understand,

I'm not in the place to say what you did wrong, it's not where I stand.

I think you did a great job, and you're a great person.

So, let's just be friends, and nothing ever more.

And I wish you the best for the future, and good luck with everything else the future brings

By the way...are we still up for those chess things?

The Old Days, But Everything Is Fine Now (Part II)

I stared at moon, smiling as the clear navy blue sky, and the rain slowly fell

Like tears, crying for the past, mourning for the present, and wishing for the future

Yeah, I miss you,

But it's okay, in the end,

Sometimes we just have to grow up and suck it up.

Sometimes you think you can't be strong, but you can, especially when it's the only thing you have left to be.

Sometimes you think you don't have the ability to hate, until it's the only thing you feel towards everyone.

And sometimes, when you're in the hole of loneliness an darkness you think you can't smile, or laugh, or be happy again, until you are.

Everything passes, it just takes time and patience.

Everything changes, everything moves.

Every tear you shed is replaced by smiles.

Everything changes, everything shifts.

Don't get too comfortable, it's all gonna end.

The important thing is that you overcome it, and you overtake it

You don't have to be what everyone else wants you to be,

There's way more to life than doing what they all want you to do,

If that slipper don't fit, well, don't wear it at all,

Why tip-toe on glass, when your bare feet in the grass feel so damn good

Reach up and try to catch a shooting star, hold on to it, and don't ever let it go

Lock your fears somewhere where they never get out,

Don't let nobody knock you down, and, girl, you know why?

Because today is when theres no fears, nothing holding you down,

This is your happily ever after

We all have to grow up,

We all have to be strong

We all go through our share of pain and grief, but in the end, it's all worth it.

I thought, as I stood up and I smiled, up at the moon.

I'm fine alone, I'm fine with no one, I think I'm doing all right.

I Miss...Part I

As the cold wind intertwined his fingers into mine, freezing my fingers

The past comes to the present to look at my future,
The wind blows my hair back and I close my eyes as this world spins and swirls and twirls

Two little beautiful girls

I miss everything.

I miss the songs, and the singing

Though I'm not good, but it was fun, it was worth it.

We burst out into random songs at random times,

It was like Glee, lol, but better

I felt real good after I sang, and I still do.

But this time I sing quietly because I got told I wasn't good

I got told that I should just "Shut up! You have no future."

From that day on, I have.

I miss everything.

I miss the books and the writing.

Ha, remember my poems?

Do you really remember what I wrote?

Did you like it?

Do you remember how we use to keep a journal filled with poems?

Those were the days. Were we told our stories and our feeling through poetry.

I miss everything.

I miss the music.

The new bands, and the new singers.

The country and the screamo.

The rap and the hip-hop.

Knitting and talking. Good times.

I miss everything.

But most of all I miss you.

I miss how you really knew me.

You knew I only cried when things got tough.

When I couldn't take it anymore, and you were always there.

You knew whose ass needed to be kicked and when.

You knew why I wrote and why I sang.

We even wrote and sang together.

You knew my deepest secret and I knew yours.

You knew how I didn't get jealous, and when I did I overcame it.

You knew how I got when I got angry.

You knew how I laughed and smiled to make others day, even when I had had the worst day.

You knew how I wanted to be a veterinarian and I wanted lots of animals.

You knew who I was and why I was that.

You saw my grow and you saw me shrink

Into a shell that no one passed but you never gave up and you broke it.

Into someone who felt so small, and so useless and stupid.

Someone who was told she wasn't worth anything, who got teased and pushed.

"Look at her" they all whispered. They all laughed.

But you were always there in the end. Always.

Until we had to go our separate ways,

You had to go yours and I had to go mine.

I was left alone, and I thought I could make it.

Turns out I can't.

I can't take it no more.

I need you, I need you bad.

I have so much to say, but no one to hear.

I have so much to show, but no one to show.

I have so much to give, but no one to give it to.

It turns out I'm weak, and I can't trust anyone.

The closest I have to a friend is an enemy.

I miss everything.

But most of all,

The one thing I'd trade,

I'd give ANYTHING for,

Is you.