21st Birthday Ideas!

So, I was thinking...I need a job. And I need moolah! Mucho Dinero! lol...I do need money though. So, I was thinking for my 21st birthday, I'm going to LONDON!! Or Britain...or somewhere near there. I want to go and explore and stuff. I then want to go to Paris, and oh, I also want to go to Africa. BUT first London. So, I'm going to start saving up money for the trip. I want to have MONEY. BUNCHES. OF. MONEY. I want to stay at a 5 star hotel, get the finest service, I want to have the best camera. I want the best everything. I need money though. I am going to start working, now at a young age, so by the time I'm 21 I will most likely have a few thousand. I wonder how dollars and pounds relate.

I do have a few extra pounds a few places...lol, not the money kind! I want to go with a few friends, or maybe with a boyfriend..but not going to happen. I think I'm going alone. Most likely alone. I can see myself, walking the busy streets of London, in the winter, alone. The cold winter air gently piercing my oddly-dark-tannished skin, as it's icy fingers reach down my neck. I can see myself at a Cafe...What do they speak in London...French? English? Hmm...how I wonder. But, that is my plan.
That's what I'm going to do for my 21st birthday...so exciting!!

I'm looking for a job right now. Most likely babysitting, or yard sales for now. When I'm older I think I might get a part-time job...or something. I just need a way to get money--legally. Haha! Looking for a job, anyone need anything for now?? lol! Well, TTYL!

My Feeling For You

I hate you so much,
I think I'm starting to like your touch.
I hate you so much,
Every time you're near I have to clutch
something to remind me it's real.
I hate you so much,
You're changing the way I feel.

I hate your touch
And I hate you a bit too much
I hate that I hate you with such passion
With such love.
I hate that you kiss her, and not me.
I hate that you hug her, and not me
I hate that you like her, more than me
I hate your stupid smile, that makes me weak
I hate your stupid eyes, that can see my emotions, loud and clear
I hate your hands, your touch takes me out of this world
I hate being overweight, geeky, and stupid.
I hate being me, and not her.
I hate you.
I hate you so much I like you.
I hate you so much, so, so, so much.
But most of all,
I hate how much I don't hate you, I hate how much I love you, and that you hold her not me.
I hate that I don't even hate you a little bit,
not a little, nothing at all.

Got a puppy!

Hey, hey. Haha...check out my puppy!! She's a bundle of fur running around the house! She's soo loveable!

He's Getting Married Today

He's getting married today
I knew this would happen someday,
I just didn't expect it this soon.
I sat up all night, staring at the moon,
Wondering why this had to happen, I thought I had a little more time
A little more time to be with you,
I honestly had no clue

All this started when you met her, at that cafe
She had a chance, you gave her a chance
I tried not to display my dismay,
As you started, with her, a great romance.
I didn't expect you to get married,
All my hopes and dreams got buried

Roses and roses, oh look, another bouquet
You proposed to her in that same cafe
On a Wednesday afternoon,
And spent the night with her, talking, sharing dreams and hopes,
Names, and plans, out in the big bright stars, staring at the full moon
On that sweet, warm night in June

You eagerly told me all about her, and what you liked
You always told me all about her, even when I didn't want to hear it
And, yes, I'll admit it,
She sounds perfect,
I hope I'm incorrect,
I just don't want you to get married today
Don't you dare, my faith, and trust betray

But, she's beautiful in her simple little way
She don't have to much to say
Even when she gets mad
She understand everything and all
Guess I should've been more like that
Too bad He's getting married today

I know you're happy
And I'm happy for you
But since you found her,
It's obvious who you prefer
Since
He's getting married today
I just don't know how to say

I know there's a soul out there for mine
I was sent here to find
But, tell me,
what if it's you
What if it's true?
I don't know how to tell you, or even what to say
All since you're getting married today

If I had the chance to hold you,
If I had the chance, to find out if it's true
If you can feel the same way,
If you can only stay,
Please, just one chance,
Just one dance, just one more glance,
Please, stay.
Please, don't get married married today.

That Makes Me Crazy

Random poem. Stir of the moment, had an incident today, I know, it's dumb, and stupid, but it was fun writing it. :D


We've known each other for years
Even though you're a little strange
You've heard and listened with both ears
I hope you never change
Just the way you are, being with you
That makes me crazy

The way you smile,
that makes me smile, and suddenly
Everything, it's all worthwhile.
Your smile, sweet and lazy
That makes me crazy

I've held this long enough,
I don't want to anymore,
Held this long enough, no more bluff
Can't and won't ignore
All that sneaking and peeking
That makes me crazy

This has gone long enough, it's time to admit
I just want to let you know
I think it's time I tell you, I want to commit
You had me at hello,
You always make me laugh, we joke, and we smile
You're just my type, just my style
I don't know how to tell you
I guess I always knew
But I think I'm falling for you
That makes me crazy