My Feeling For You

I hate you so much,
I think I'm starting to like your touch.
I hate you so much,
Every time you're near I have to clutch
something to remind me it's real.
I hate you so much,
You're changing the way I feel.

I hate your touch
And I hate you a bit too much
I hate that I hate you with such passion
With such love.
I hate that you kiss her, and not me.
I hate that you hug her, and not me
I hate that you like her, more than me
I hate your stupid smile, that makes me weak
I hate your stupid eyes, that can see my emotions, loud and clear
I hate your hands, your touch takes me out of this world
I hate being overweight, geeky, and stupid.
I hate being me, and not her.
I hate you.
I hate you so much I like you.
I hate you so much, so, so, so much.
But most of all,
I hate how much I don't hate you, I hate how much I love you, and that you hold her not me.
I hate that I don't even hate you a little bit,
not a little, nothing at all.